Stuck

 So discouraged and disillusioned today. It feels like I never get anywhere. Stuck in the muck, Going in circles, with clouds clinging. I keep coming back to the same places and spaces. Ugh. What’s the fucking point anyway??? Scream…….. No comfort in our own skin

Is this what there is for me? Up and down and all around and unknown day to day. what will we say, what will we do- who knew? I just don’t know why I keep trying so hard. Survival I suppose. But at what point do you just quit? Am I on autopilot and just deluding myself? Hope is often so hard for me to find. Perhaps that’s the delusion. What is real?

So far away today. 

In to the dark. Is that my comfort zone? 

Still alone

11.23.24