Isolation

Isolation 

It’s coming soon. I am trying to prepare for what will be painfully absent but not sure that’s possible. More likely a one moment at a time situation that I will just have to figure out as I go. There will be shutdown and numbing for sure. I just hope I don’t loose the keys.

I’m mostly sad today thinking about not having that safe space with a kind face; the precious and scarce commodity of coregulation and also knowledge. It’s hard to find that when you’re alone. Grounding and safety type tools will be in abundance and trying to keep glimmers of hope a daily goal. My success will vary. I’m still trying. 

So much unknown. That’s makes it even harder.

12.19.24